Today is Michael's 2nd b-day! It's a real crummy day out. We got sleet and rain so it's really slick out. We are just having pizza and cake today. My sis, my nphew and her fiance are coming over and so are my parents. My stepson's over too. Michael's big b-day party is next Sunday at matt's sister's house. I can't believe my lil man is 2! It's like where has the time gone. It seems like just yesterday I was holding him in my arms. We took him and got his hair cut yesterday. He did really well. LAst time we both had to hold him down, but yesterday he sat there. He got a little ansy at the end, but it's expected. He's been so funny lately too, just doing funny things. I love him so much!
On to the negative news. Well, it's been a tough week for me. I'm going thru alot and have been really stressed out and down. I've been struggling with anxiety as it is, but don't want to take the medication prescribed for me. I want to do it on my own. i got to counseling every couple wks and that helps a little. But anyway, Matt got Fired from his job on wednesday. He has a really bad temper and got mad at a co-worker and they exchanged words and then Matt threw a shovel at him. You're 36 yrs old a grown ass adult, he should know how to act, esp in a place of work. So I'm freaking out because jobs are hard to come by. Michigan's economy is very bad rite now, and if you have a job you need to hold on to it. We can't make it on my income alone. SO unitl he finds a job, I'll be looking for a 2nd job. I won't see Michael as much, but I have to take care of my son. So I'm worried about paying the bills and everything. Plus, I'm just angry. I mean this is his 2nd job he got fired from in 2 yrs. His first job he was a mgr at a car wash making really good money. Plus I was dealing with his drinking, it's just all has added up and it's hard for me to handle. I asked him to stop his drinking, which for now, he hasn't. But it's always one thing after another. I'm trying to make this marriage work and I'm trying to be supposrtive of him best I can, but he got us in this predictament and he should be the one to get us out. I'm just so frusterated, I'm already running out of money and I don'tt know what to do.
Saturday, I' going out with some girls from work. We're going to the bar i can't wait. I feel guilty for going out, but hey I haven't gone out till recently in like over a yr. I'm still young and need to have a life. It;s one keeps me sane, LOL!!!